waiting

We seem to be at a standstill waiting for something to happen. We're waiting for the city to approve our most recently updated construction plans. We're waiting for the general contractor to come back with new bids for the hvac and electrical. Waiting.

We're waiting for the insurance company to finish all that they have to do regarding the accident. Waiting for all the medical claims to be filed so we can start the process of recouping some costs from the auto insurance company. Waiting.

E and I are waiting to find out what her new cheer program will be like. We're waiting for the new competition schedule. Waiting for information from her new coach about costs, uniforms, team members, etc. Waiting.

Problem is, I'm not good with waiting. I prefer action. Something that shows progress is being made. Some sign that things will get done, accomplishments will be made. Anything.

But no--we're just waiting.

They say that things happen for a reason

They say that things happen for a reason. How much stock can you put in that, though. I mean, could it really be true all of the time??? Is there really some great force directing every move that we make? Or are there certain moments, occurrences in which something bigger than ourselves has played a part? Three weeks ago, while heading home from work, I was in a car accident. It just so happened that I was by myself, as it was a Monday. If it had been Tuesday, E would have been with me. But it was a Monday, and I was headed home by myself. Was there a reason for my being in the accident? Was there some thing, bigger than myself (and the driver who flew across the road in front of me) that put me in that place at that time? The most obvious effects of the accident were that I had to find (and finance) a new car, and talk to a lawyer about my medical claims. There are less obvious consequences like a much higher interest rate than I used to have, a higher car payment, and dealing with uninsured motorists (seriously folks, carry insurance!!). But what about the ripple effect--the things in my future that happen as a direct, or indirect, result of the accident? Were they somewhere in the greater plan? All of the things happening now and in the future that result, in some way, from the accident? Is there really some cosmic reason for every detail???

There's a first time for everything

So I thought I might try my hand at blogging. I have a bit of free time and wondered if I would be any good at it. Will anyone read what I've written?

Even though we've been through hell over the past few months right it still feels like the calm before the storm. Maybe I'm just being apprehensive. Maybe I'm just being paranoid, reacting to all the dumping that's been going on recently. But maybe, just maybe my gut is right. Either way, I do know that things will be becoming much more insane over the next two months. HOPEFULLY it will all result in peace of mind, prosperity, and, most of all, happiness.